We arrived at a Youth Hostel in Glasgow, tired and hungry after 6 weeks of cycling throughout Scotland. Standing at the reception with my 56 yr old sister (I was 39) I overheard one lad say loudly “Isn’t it good to see 2 old ducks here”.

Now, I’m not sure if this was meant to be an uplifting comment but what I did feel was judged and inferior.

Why is it that I feel so ashamed of being older. There’s the feeling of being useless, no longer seen or heard with no place in our society that values us except…

My 60th birthday just passed me by and contrary to what was expected of me by myself and others it didn’t feel like a celebration in any way. I cried silently when no one was watching. Letting the side down wasn’t an option — after all the family did their utmost to make this a very special day for me.

I cried for lost opportunities, lost youth, lost passion for life and a feeling of deep sadness filled by heart and soul which is still lingering.

In this youth-obsessed world, the opportunities are seemingly endless for those that figure it…

The “Why am I here?” question that drives people to religion, to get married, have kids, get divorced, buy stuff, sell stuff, uproot — leave their jobs and travel for ever….This simple yet complex question can torture us without discrimination from teens to death.

Thinking back to my younger years I always thought that age would make my “cause” clearer. But with all the twists and turns that have happened the path has become very convoluted and confusing.

It’s not easy to look back and make sense of my choices and there are many times I wish I had not…

I used to dream

I would dream for a better life, more money, a life of travel and adventure, a wonderful man, to swim with whale sharks, to live in Canada….I dreamed of all this and far more.

The dreams became specific, and at times they were orders not put forward gently but with frustration and determination. My passion in making them happen was unyielding.

Each day ended with a list of things that would happen tomorrow with action plans put forward — the day began with positivity, love and gratitude towards what I have already.

My life was a…

If I hear “oh — that’s because mercury is in retrograde” one more time……

I swear I’m the only one who has no interest in astrology or how the moon and the stars are affecting my mind, my life, my work and my health.

Is there anyone else out there?! It’s driving me crazy!

I guess it makes it more difficult since I’m in what is called ‘heart centred’ work…and this is where everybody hangs out who knows all about my star sign and my future.

What if I asked them within 2 minutes (or less) what car they drive…

It was almost 2 years ago that the urge to walk away from the life I’d been wandering along with for decades became overwhelming and took on a life of it’s own.

The twists and turns that have ensued have become poetry in motion forever unfolding and morphing along the way.

The course of my life has taken me to so many places already

Registered Nurse, BMW motorbike traveller, married with 6 sons , Hare Krsna, the only person I know to get thrown off a Hare Krsna farm, owner operator of a small and busy natural therapy practice, home owner, home loser, divorced single mum, world traveller, fruit picker, podcaster, writer and…

Be Persistent. Be stubborn, Be endlessly determined and Be unshakeable in your continuing journey to becoming the person you plan on becoming, living in the place you are planning on living and having the abundance of health you are planning on owning.

I feel like that’s all that needs to be said!

Once you have Recognised what you need to change in your life, delved deep into the why’s and how’s, discovered never before seen secret pockets of amazingness, old habits, emotional upheavals and deep, deep loves the next step is to Decide to take the bull by the horns and charge that sucker to it’s utmost ability. (terrible analogy…I know).

It’s all well and good to be all airy-fairy and cosmic about the ins and outs of how our mind, body and spirit are working together so smoothly — it’s another…

Your comfort zone is a dubious place to be. It can provide a place of freedom from pain and unease — and also alleviate feelings of distress.

Which is all well and good and all that — but, how long should you stay there in that place of comfort. How long does it take until the comfort zone becomes a place of unease, of unfulfilled dreams, a place of complacency and boredom and ultimately a place that you are too afraid to leave.

but WHAT IS A COMFORT ZONE! Here’s a really quick example.

A few days ago my cat started to froth at the mouth (it was a bit scary for sure) — his reaction was very interesting and happened very quickly. He jumped to his…